Packed and Ready To Go

In February of 2010, the expectations I had that we would adopt were shattered and all was in question.  This was my response.


packed and ready to go

grabbing with gusto life’s necessities
I packed my bags
I folded in what I preferred
I sat on top and zipped it closed
confident and unaware

unaware that I had taken the lead
not acknowledging I can't pack
if I don't know where I’m going

if I don't consult you
the map holder- the map maker
then I cannot pack my bags at all

I have no right to feel duped
no understandable claim to frustration
because I jumped
with assumptions
ahead of you

leaving me now confused and deflated

where are we going?
for I do not think it was where I was headed
when will we get there?
my anxious heart longs to know

save me from my eagerness
direct me toward your path
and most of all make this disconnect dissipate

unify me to your plan
use me, if you still can
and take this life to where you’ve meant it to go all along

You take care of packing my bags
and I will be waiting and ready
when it is time to carry them

why don’t you let me know when You are packed and ready to go