Money. I truly dislike money. (Now, my husband would say it is the lack of money that I do not like, which may be true...nonetheless, I still dislike money).
Everything ultimately comes down to money. Having enough of it to do what you need to do, want to do, feel lead to do. Oh Lord, don't let money be our obstacle...our stumbling block. I pray you show up bigger than money. I don't want to give up because the lack of money intimidated me too much. I want to stare that beast down...eye to eye...and know full well you'll provide...moving forward regardless.
But right now, my heart weighs heavy...it aches. My hope and my hold on our adoption is being tested (and it seems like that happens more times than I can count- is that part of your plan?...Growing me through doubt ...Are you testing me to see how steadfast I am at even the bleakest of times? Or is this just a product of other work you are doing? I so don't like being a side effect, by the way.)
Hold my heart in your hand, Lord. Grant me an increase in hope...in faith. Protect my dreams of adoption. Protect my children as they continue to wait for us to come get them.
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